I'm outside this time. Just had my morning smoke. I work in an hour... I have to shower. So that's me at the moment. I budgetted the hell out of the next while. We're good, so long as my boyfriend takes care of rent for the new place we have to find next month. We're out of the appartment soon. Everything will be different yet again, soon.
I started using my bus/metro pass to go places like China town (just because, with a few dollars pocket change)(bad idea but some tiny indulgance in a place where everything costs little over $1.00 CAD can't be too bad)
I don't have much time to write. I split my hair in two colors. This is not the result in the picture, I have bedhead. Either way, I will be coloring the blonde side deep blue soon. After my 6 hour shift today, that begins very soon, and I hate that, I will be going home to do just that. Also, I'll be bringing back plenty of vegetables for Frank and I to eat.
- we have food
- we can afford to smoke
- we have transportation passes
- we should be good for the next month
- my having a job is serving an important purpose in taking care of my relationship. (positive)
I'm going to have to jump in the shower. There are a few other things I'd like to type up before that.
I'd like to say that strength is all I know or am aloud to know these days. The lapses are very strong and there's allot going against me these days. There's also allot to keep me grounded or strong. It's a struggle every day.
Next time I post here, I'm hoping the post will be even more positive than this one. I may not be feeling great but things are doing well and I do appreciate that.
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I look forward to my stay at my parents' house. I hope it'll be as comforting as last time. My old home, that I used to feel so uncomfortable in for cleanliness reasons, now feels like a palace to me. This appartment is rather clean but it's very small. My old home feels huge in comparison. The bed is bigger and there's lots of food. All the opposite of what I used to think.
Next time I write I'll have semi-blue hair, I look forward to that.